Kyle was good today - got another smile from the doctors! They went down on his breaths per minute. They did the echo today but no results until tomorrow. The NICU was really busy today - but in the afternoon the traffic slowed down and I got to hold Kyle AGAIN! We had a great time! He did great while I was holding him. I don't think unless you have done kangaroo care with a 1 pound and now 14 OUNCE (just a little bragging there!) preemie you can imagine how scary it is to unhook this little guy from his vent and watch a nurse carry him and literally about 50 cords over to you then get him hooked back up and hold him and his vents and today two pumps that give him meds and food just right while you love on him, pray for him, sing to him and just chat a little too! Don't get me wrong - none of this is complaining - it is AMAZING but scary at the same time. I must admit I feel like I might be getting good at it! I am blessed and changed each time I touch is little lion body and smell his little lion smell! I love him to pieces! Please keep praying for Kyle - also he is having trouble with his oxygenation - lots of desats - please pray for this to stabalize - this can be a symptom of the pda (the hole in a heart) or of chronic lung disease. Also please pray for his nurses - they are amazing. Please ask the Lord to bless them in their lives and to be insightful, attentive and full of wisdom as they watch over kyle.
oh ... back to the subject above - Tonight I came home from the hospital early to spend some time with Jadon and Jack. We had a great time playing cars, reading stories and decorating for christmas with Dad! I really think this is the highlight of Jadon's year. I let them both stay up late selfishly just to spend a few more minutes with them! It is so hard to be away from them this much but I am feeling it is even harder for them. Tonight as john was tucking jadon in to bed Jadon became so overwhelmed with that just truly sad cry. Big tears that seemed to come from nowhere but I know came from a building of little boy stress. He said that he did not feel special. My heart sank to hear that coming from the other room and to hear that great big cry again. Talk about a tough family moment! It was just one of those cries that needed to come out. So john spent the next 30 minutes reassuring jadon of how special he is and that God made him "b/c he wanted to". and reminding him of the fact that he was given to us as a gift and oh how we treasure him! Jadon (being incredibly verbal) told us that he was having some "not so nice memories" and those made him sad. We talked through all that and then after lots of hugs I laid down with him. We planned out the week and organized what time I would spend with him and he let me know he can't wait till kyle gets home so we can be a family that lives in one house. We prayed, I sang his song, and then laid down with him - as I was telling him one more time how special he was and how much I loved him I began to hear the faintest little snoring. He fell asleep in about 30 seconds.
All of you on the wall tonight, please pray for Jadon. His name means God has heard.
I am so deeply thankful to whoever you are that is reading this right now. Thank you for doing life with me.
- John and Kelly
- This story begins with 5 people. John, Kelly, Jadon, Jack, and Kyle (he is only 23 weeks old... and he is still safely tucked away in his mommy's belly) In an hour's time Kyle made his way into the world. 1 pound, 3 ounces- 11 and a half inches long. This family will never be the same. This child is a warrior. He has the spirit of a Lion, and more courage than a whole pride. He is fierce, and fearless- and he is teaching us to fear the Lord- and to believe that God is in our midst and healing even now. Join us as pray, as we praise, and as we journey through this life as lovers of God and all His glory.