Prayers please - Surgery Next Week!

No need to panic - this is planned!  Kyle will be having his hernia repair next week! March the 4th.  I can honestly say that i feel like he is ready.  When I start to think of the ventilator side of it I can go from normal to panic in about 1 second flat - so those are the moments I stop pray over him.  really and truly - and then I pray over me - my emotions and thoughts.   

The Hermann tower at Memorial Hermann Hospital is still what gets me - I think it is going up those elevators - so many times confident that total devastation is what I would find at the top.  A strong nausea and great anxiousness overwhelms me every time I board one of those elevators.  Kyle's surgery is on the 2nd floor of that tower.  So even though I know he is ready - I am a bit worried about my mental and emotional state that day.  Good news is that we should be in and out before you know it.  We will leave our house at 4:15 am!  and should be home by 3 in the afternoon?! ish - somewhere around there!  and so soon after this kyle is off of isolation!!!!  

We are so close to freedom I can smell it -  

so the pics and videos are coming soon - i am still trying to move in!!!  sad, I know.  but I will get there.

Just wanted to post to ask anyone reading to pray for kyle.  I write this not even knowing how in the world all this works anymore.  In fact it is kind of humorous to me that i actually really thought I did know at one time.  hmmmm.... funny thought.   Anyway - I still - with little understanding of who God truly is and how he truly works - I still ask you to go to him on Kyle's behalf.  I desperately want him to come through this with flying colors!

One year Corrected...

There are so many things in my life that seem to me to be unbelievable.  like....

the fact that I am finally blogging again ( I know it took forever)  hahaha :)

5 months after hurricane IKE we are back in our home!!!

2 days ago was kyle's 1 year corrected birthday

2 days ago was also 1 year from the day we brought him home from the hospital

and most unbelievable of all - Kyle has officially passed his sleep study and is off of oxygen, and has been recommended to come off all monitors (apnea and pulse ox!)  I'm a hair nervous about letting go of those!

It just seems hard to believe but it really is true - 15 months ago all hell broke lose...  figuratively speaking (I think).  and hear i am - over a year later - looking around, sometimes surveying the damage but mostly grateful.  For so long I never thought I could get here.  I can not say honestly yet that I am grateful for all that has happened.  But I am grateful for who I am now - for how I am changing.  For the lives that have been threaded into mine - for those I am so grateful.

each day brings me closer to realizing that I don't have to wait for some milestone to be living my dream but that this is my dream.  :)

I am so enjoying every day in our new house with 3 VERY rowdy little boys!  pics soon - and i learned how to fix my videos - i'll up load some soon - these kids are FUUUUNNNNNYYYY!