I am so tired tonight. and I worry that you don't want to hear about my breakdown in my closet floor tonight - so I will just share this.
I start every monring with a huge desire and determination to be filled with joy and act like it. My 3rd son has been born and he is beautiful (even when I type that now - I am smiling). I just want to rejoice and I want to be strong to fight for kyle. He is going through the tough stuff not us. but then by the end of the day I hurt. HURT! so again tonight I will CHOOSE to focus on the truth - God's truth.
God ordained Kyle's days
God is in control
God is good.
God loves kyle and created him b/c he wanted to
and here is one that is hard to admint - this was not my fault - I didn't cause this.
and I will praise the Lord at all times I will constatntly speak His praise!
and what I have been wanting to say for several nights is thank you - Thank you to all of you who are praying - thank you for making my children and my family your priority! I am in awe. Thank you for commenting - even thought I don't answer I read each of them and I am SOO encouraged to know that you are praying for us and for kyle. I love every story and every encouragement every thought and every scripture you all send to me.
Thank you to all of you that have sent financial help and gift cards for gasoline or coffee or meals. Thankyou for the home group full of people we don't even know that are bringing us food.
and to those of you that have literally paused your lives to live with me in this new strange reality. You clean my house, do my laundry, cook my meals - and MOST OF ALL you are loving my children. and as I have asked out of desparation you all have met me with open arms and joy. thank you for loving me. I did not know love ran this deep.
THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THIS - this is community. this is what scripture meant when it speaks of church.
psalm 34: 17,18 "The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed. the righteouse person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time. for the Lord protects the bones of the righteous; not one of them is broken!"
- John and Kelly
- This story begins with 5 people. John, Kelly, Jadon, Jack, and Kyle (he is only 23 weeks old... and he is still safely tucked away in his mommy's belly) In an hour's time Kyle made his way into the world. 1 pound, 3 ounces- 11 and a half inches long. This family will never be the same. This child is a warrior. He has the spirit of a Lion, and more courage than a whole pride. He is fierce, and fearless- and he is teaching us to fear the Lord- and to believe that God is in our midst and healing even now. Join us as pray, as we praise, and as we journey through this life as lovers of God and all His glory.