I feel like I have neglected my online journal. but at least what I hear from others is that they have too. Christmas has been good - with the funniest 5 year old in the world, the sweetest (almost 2 year old) in the world, and a miracle for a 2 month old - how can it be anything less than perfect. but I will say it has been hard. really hard. It is so strange to feel thankful and unsatisfied. grateful and anxious. excited and scared. happy and so sad - all at the very same time.
thankfully I am married to john - b/c I don't know anyone else that would put up with my whining and complaining and still truly love me. he is patient, truly patient. He helps me remember that christmas is about much more than my schedule!
anyway - on the the first kiss. I got to kiss kyle for the first time today. on his hand. my lips to his little skin. after 2 months of wanting nothing more - I don't have words to describe this one. I held him today and he did great - He cried just a bit, it sounds adorable. he also made those baby noises as he snuggled around and got comfortable!
We had a great time today. A friend of ours is having a rough time - he is getting back positive cultures and this means infection. Please pray. I have lots of questions lately about prayer - not that I don't believe. I do believe. I know God is right. but I just don't get what right is. I think on this every day.
Kyle is still doing good - eye doctor came today and Kyle got ANOTHER good report. Dr. Hitner is a world famous pediatric optometrist. She says it is unusual for a baby kyle's gestation with an insult (like the brain bleed) to make it through with out ROP. but so far so good! She will check him again next week.
Kyle's belly looked a bit loopy tonight - they are watching it. this worries me but I will take this to the Lord and ask him for protection for kyle.
please keep praying asking for a healthy digestive system, perfect eye sight, and for kyle's brain to be restored to perfection.
better days are ahead - i am trying to believe that I am praying and asking for that.
- John and Kelly
- This story begins with 5 people. John, Kelly, Jadon, Jack, and Kyle (he is only 23 weeks old... and he is still safely tucked away in his mommy's belly) In an hour's time Kyle made his way into the world. 1 pound, 3 ounces- 11 and a half inches long. This family will never be the same. This child is a warrior. He has the spirit of a Lion, and more courage than a whole pride. He is fierce, and fearless- and he is teaching us to fear the Lord- and to believe that God is in our midst and healing even now. Join us as pray, as we praise, and as we journey through this life as lovers of God and all His glory.