Monday, December 31, 2007
Tired on New Year's Eve - Kelly
Here is a pic of Kyle on nasal Cannula. He is so cute and even though he has been looking pretty good he tired out on the cannula today. After too many brady's and too much retracting his nurse decided Kyle needed to be back on CPAP. He was working really hard and by the end I could physically see his right side sinking in every time he took a breath. Misty could hear him grunting which is him trying too hard to create the pressure that keeps his sacks in his lungs open. The CPAP will hold this pressure for him. I am not sure if I am just disappointed, tired or really i think it just upset me to see him struggle. and it is so scary to watch his little body do things that are not normal - normal for him anyway. it is so hard to just walk away and leave him in the hands of anyone but me - his mommy. I was designed to take care of him - i mean if he had been term I would go home and "just know" what he needed. but I don't have the skill or the education or the know how or the ability to take care of my own son. i am so grateful and I am trying to rest in that instead of focusing on the fear. I just think that the instinct to take care of him and the inability to do it sometimes leaves me with fear or worry that might be a better term.
he is in the absolute best hands possible right now. he is with misty and if she says he needs CPAP then he needs it - she knows him. and she cares about him - in fact I asked her to blow him a midnight kiss.
i think I just am getting ready to bring him home - i mean i just want to - I can't wait to strap him on me with one of those hippie papooses and cart him all around the house. I can't wait to snuggle like the lady was tonight at the restaurant with her little one. i'm just ready!
please pray for kyle to get stronger and bigger. they will try him on nasal cannula again when they feel he is ready.
thank you God that kyle is antibiotic free! thank you that he does not have any ivs. thank you that he is progressing and growing. PLEASE protect him. God would you fill Matthew's mom and dad with peace - i don't know how you will do it, but please and even joy. God will you heal Coy from his infections. Thank you Lord for Misty, Amy, Valerie, Brandi, Valerie NP, Dr. Lopez, Kim, Debbie, Carrie, Kelly - would you bless this army that fights for our children.
- John and Kelly
- This story begins with 5 people. John, Kelly, Jadon, Jack, and Kyle (he is only 23 weeks old... and he is still safely tucked away in his mommy's belly) In an hour's time Kyle made his way into the world. 1 pound, 3 ounces- 11 and a half inches long. This family will never be the same. This child is a warrior. He has the spirit of a Lion, and more courage than a whole pride. He is fierce, and fearless- and he is teaching us to fear the Lord- and to believe that God is in our midst and healing even now. Join us as pray, as we praise, and as we journey through this life as lovers of God and all His glory.